But “culture shock” doesn’t do justice to
the complicated mixture of emotions from my first weeks here. Not only am I
living in a different culture, but I am also trying to relocate my life to a
new location, no matter that the new location is in a different country. Along
with any relocation comes attempts to meet new people, make new friends,
establish a routine, and create a community. Along with this particular relocation also
comes attempts to accomplish all of the above in a different language, and to
balance American, international, and Peruvian friends.
With the intersection of both culture
shock and relocation, my emotions change at the drop of a hat. One minute I am
triumphant that I successfully found and bought chapstick at the grocery store,
and then the next, frustrated when I have trouble understanding the Spanish of
my Peruvian friends. I am excited to explore PerĂº, but worried that I’m only hitting the tourist spots. I am always wanting to meet
new people, but am mentally exhausted from so many interactions in a new
language and culture.
My first three weeks in Lima have been some of the most stressful,
challenging, and frustrating weeks I have ever experienced. The main lesson I've discovered about myself in these three weeks? I value community. I seek a sense of support, of comfort with my surroundings, and a feeling of normalcy. The hardest part of this study abroad experience so far has been a feeling of floating. I'm not sure where I can go and who I can turn to. I don't know the most efficient route to Parque Kenedy or where the best bar to watch sports games is. I can't just call up a new Peruvian friend to come over and watch a movie any time I want.
I think that some people, the real adventure types, find this part of the experience exciting - thrilling, even. And that's not to say that I don't like to adventure. I do. I'm just looking forward to when I can adventure to new parts of Lima and PerĂº and feel as though I am returning to a strong base and a sense of comfort with myself and my surroundings.
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